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[supposedtochange]

"Yes. I did. I thought the threat of the Crystal Gems would have been enough to convince them to leave the Earth alone."

And yet she'd continued to raise armies, regardless.

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"You made us." And they hadn't had her taken from them. She'd left them. She'd brought them to life never planning to stay. Jasper looks at her sideways, through shaking fingers, the tears coming fast and thick now.

"You made us to fight and shatter your own troops. And- and to be shattered by them? You made us knowing we could only fail?" Even if they defeated the Crystal Gems, it would have been going against their Diamond's true wishes.

The anger's coming back now, but brittle and heartbroken. "Is that why the Beta Kindergarten was such a mess? You wanted the Crystal Gems to win? Did I-" she lets out something between a sob and a choked, hollow laugh. "Did I disappoint you by being so effective?"

She wasn't wanted. Pink never wanted her. She was nothing, a pawn in a big hoax. Nothing but a joke.

[supposedtochange]

"No. Never. Not even for a moment. Jasper, you - you're incredible. But what Homeworld taught you isn't right."

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"Homeworld didn't create me so I could fail!" She'd never have believed the vitriol in those words could be directed at a Diamond - her own Diamond. But her hatred at Rose and at herself isn't gone because of this. It just got a lot more complicated. "I fought for you, I loved you-!"

Pink doesn't get to blame this on anyone else. Jasper can't hold back on another choked sob.

"And I thought Rose was cruel!"

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She reaches out as if to touch her shoulder, then decides that's a bad idea and withdraws.

"I didn't have a choice, Jasper."

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Jasper jerks away from the hand, even though it doesn't reach her. Does she hate her own Diamond? She isn't sure. But she never thought anything could hurt her this much.

"You had more of a choice than I did."

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She shakes her head.

"That's not true. You could have joined the Crystal Gems, too. I could have protected you."

[justsayyes]

"Protect me from what, your other troops who were too stupid to realize they were playing the fools? The other Diamonds' retaliation?"

Look how many gems were saved from that.

[supposedtochange]

She's tearing up now, of course.

"Jasper, I've spent millennia dealing with the consequences of the corrupting light. What else could I have done to make the Diamonds leave Earth alone?"

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"And I spent my life thinking I was fighting for you, that I was yours, when you'd abandoned me before I was even out of the ground." Before the injectors had even come down, because clearly they were just bodies to cover up what was really going on.

"Your promises and excuses are just as hollow now as they were coming from Rose."

She backs away again. How can she act like this was anything but her own fault? Sharing the Barge with Rose alone was bad enough.

[supposedtochange]

"I'm not making excuses. I'm asking you, Jasper - would anything else have made the Diamonds leave Earth?"

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"Was it worth all the lives? All your friends I shattered, all the pain you caused?"

She doesn't care. She doesn't care about the Earth, or the other Diamonds, or anything but her, and Pink, and her world crashing down around her.

She shakes her head. "But of course you don't care. I knew that much about Rose." She turns away now. She can't keep listening to this.

[supposedtochange]

"Of course I cared!" she insists, to Jasper's turned back. "I mourned every shattering, every loss. But I was fighting for the life of a whole planet."

[justsayyes]

"I don't need you to keep rubbing in that the rest of us didn't matter," Jasper hisses, shoulders tense as she starts walking away.

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"Jasper..."

But she's walking away. Rose takes her normal form, and all she can do is watch her go.